James Kent Law - LTD

Left Las Vegas 3 years ago after a horrible divorce, I was with him for 9 years and found out that he was cheating on me the entire time we were together, with countless teen girls and women all over the city, and not only cheated but bad mouthed me, I guess he had to make me sound really bad to make them feel bad for him like have a reason to cheat. I found out from one of the girls he was cheating with, he cheated on her, she got mad and called me up. He lied to my face for years. I divorced him immediately and never answered his calls or talked to him again. I moved out of state back to so cal with family & friends, because I felt like I needed to get away. Since then things have definitely improved.. I have an amazing boyfriend who taught me what real love is all about. I’m happier than I have ever been, went through school, have had a good time, but I do miss Las Vegas, I miss living there and the family that I have there. I want to move back..my boyfriend has lived all over the place and has been ready for a change of scene too, so we are thinking of moving back to Vegas, but my one hesitation is the fact that I have some pretty painful memories of some people there, like the ex and the girls he slept with, all of whom also knew me, girls from work,ect. Plus I know he still lives there, so there is a good chance of running into him. Part of me doesnt care and knows that I shouldn’t, I do want to live my life and he was in the wrong and should be ashamed, not me, but somehow I still feel like I carry some of that shame, like what a fool I was to be with this guy for so long that was lying to me and trashing me behind my back. I never in my life thought I ‘d be that girl but it happened. I know it’s over but should I let some of those residual feelings and fears keep me from moving back there, would that be like going backwards instead of forward. I know I shouldn’t care what people think, but I don’t want to ever feel that way again. I would be going back with a new life, real love, new career. Should the fears of painful memories or running into these people be reason enough to keep me away?